i just had curry chicken rice for dinner, and downed gulps and gulps of ice water, like i was downing the flames inside me LOL. With a perfect understanding that this was gonna burn my insides, i just happily went ahead eating. Put it nicely, i was seeking thrills frm the spice. 不好听一点， 就叫自作贱。 haha
these few days has been hectic for me. like "finally stanley is busy with sth!" lol (that's wad i think). not enough sleep, plus office so few ppl around. i had a minor misunderstanding with my friend today while going back. he went to buy sth while i was buying food. then i left alone without him. he actually called me, saying that he was waiting for me after he finished with his stuff! very truthfully i mistook it that we agreed to part ways there. but still i feel apologetic to him.
on the way, i felt very lousy. thought that i was maybe unconsciously wishing that i could go back alone. thought that i was too used to being alone that i dont feel comfortable with company, especially with just another person. it has been going thru' my head so many times all the while, that i believe i really can't comunicate well and keep conversations going. Maybe i'm too self-conscious, maybe it's because i dont have enough social experience to pick up talking points with people. Ahh how can i change this part of my character??!!
maybe i shld go for speech therapy lol. Tada.
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